Supporting Personal Development and Spiritual Growth
A CHAPTER FROM VOLUME 3
OF THE MEDICINE
OF SELVES….
QUIT
IT
Okay now that we have a good handle on this thing called Survivors Guilt and pretty much know what it is, how it works, and where it really comes from, the next question becomes: “What should or can we do to Fix it”? I asked Great Pop as you might suspect, and His response was: “Quit It”. Boy you want to talk about not being enough information or easier said than done and on, and on, and on. Hummm….. Quit it. Quit what? What it? How do you quit? Well I guess that is why He had me title this chapter this way so we can find out, ha, ha, ha. Well let’s try the dictionary thing again and see if maybe there is some type of “Hidden” message in such a simple answer. You see Great Pop does this to me from time to time. We call it our “Fishing Game”. In this game I usually am doing the fishing and start the play by throwing out some type of “bait” so as to receive an understanding. Great Pop then leads me to that which I am seeking. Usually He leads me around a circular path so that I can see the all of it in a more multidimensional sense. And if like me you are sensing His short answer as being Bait, I am pretty sure He is playing the “Game” again with me this way and I do so Love it and Him.
Okay, Quit is defined in the dictionary as:
To discontinue
or put an end to a state or an activity;
Or: To leave
office: give up or retire from a position;
Or: To depart:
go away or leave
Or:
To foreswear: turn away from; give up;
Or: To drop
out: give up in the face of defeat of lacking hope; admit defeat;
Well the first thing that I noticed after writing down these dictionary definitions is that there are in fact Five of them being listed, and of course the Medicine of the number Five is that of Fulfillment. So Hummm, lets see what it says about Fulfillment which is defined as being: A feeling of satisfaction at having achieved your desires, or the act of consummating something (a desire or promise etc).
While we could infer that what Great Pop
told me was to simply Stop doing something, He did
not. Nope, He said Quit as in to cease
or desist which related to one’s participation in an action or doing
something. In this I mean that one is a
part of something that is happening, not the all of it. Now I am drawn to the realization that the
difference between Stop and Quit is perhaps the idea and consciousness of the
word “Voluntary”. This word of Voluntary
showed up earlier today in a message from my sister in
At this point we have two parts of the puzzle in place so to speak which are Voluntary Participation and Fulfillment. And what is most obvious to me at this point is that these two pieces define both Means and Motive. Perhaps more simply put, we choose a particular ride in a theme park for the purpose of our having the experience of it. Can we bring Shame upon our family members or anyone other than ourselves? Only if they choose to voluntarily participate in the fulfillment of that potential through an expression of their Free Will and Care, period. Can a family member or anyone else make us feel Guilt or Shame? Only if we choose to voluntarily participate in the fulfillment of that potential through an expression of our Free Will and Care, no matter what. Yep, that seems to be something that “Quitting it” can be applied to for me.
Right after Bruce had killed himself which will be a year ago in four days from now, I asked a fellow that does not like me how he dealt with the loss of a good friend. I asked him particularly because I knew he was in the military and would give me the least sympathetic answer. One might wonder my Motive in doing such a thing. It was because I wanted to find out what I considered the most “Practical” and thereby Bark on tree solution. I wanted to know that simply because I was curious, not so that I could behave like in kind. His response was pretty much an ugly snarl of “Just Deal With It and Get Over It”. Actually, it was pretty much as I had thought would come from him and thereby expected. So I thanked him. Hummm…. Quit it. Deal with it. Get over it. All are simple responses it seems so why is it so difficult to do? The answer is obvious now to me, it is because I choose to Care. And if I Care, I do not so easily detach my Care hoses to that of which I was in a relationship with, period. And gee, relationship sounds like Voluntary Participation to me, ha, ha, ha.
Hummm, Quit, Detach, Cease or Desist, Leave Something, Give up, End, Stop. All simple words they seem to be yet are so difficult to do at times, and so easy in others. Hummm, “Not always so easy” now comes to mind as does the question of what Great Pop really meant in His use of the word of “It”.
As mentioned, my original Motive in producing this material was so as to provide support to the “Troops” that were returning from combat and especially those that were having difficulty in coping with their experiences and so forth. As mentioned, it was spawned by the relatively recent death and suicides of some of my military friends that I had talked with. It became even more important for me to do when Bruce died, which now was around a year ago. Because this material is about Life, we have to consider the all of it which includes Death as well. Death is certainly the “It” that I would like to “Quit”, period. And gee, Great Pop just had me notice that the last two letters of Quit, are “It”, hummm…..
It is a pronoun, or so they say. Hummm, if you can have a pronoun, can you have an “Anti-noun”? Gee this language is certainly confusing to me. Oh well lets look up “Pronoun” and “It” I guess. Hummm, “It” is defined as being: The animal or thing that was previously mentioned or is under discussion. And “Pronoun” is defined as: any member of a small class of words found in many languages that are used as replacements or substitutes for nouns and noun phrases. While this may seem like we are going nowhere in this definition search, I do find something of interest and perhaps can be of help. Yep, the thing that catches my interest is the appearance of the consciousness of Replacements or Substitutes, as these two ideas certainly seem to connect with a sense of something that is Voluntary to me. And of course to me, Voluntary implies Free Will and thereby, Choice. Over the years now I have continually espoused what I have found to be real and true which is that all that we do in Life is to make Choices. We choose to incarnate, we choose our parents. We choose the culture we participate in, we choose what we like, we choose what we do not like. We choose to take our next breath, we choose to go into combat, or not. We choose to continue to Live or to Die each moment that we take a breath or replicate another healthy or not, cell in our bodies. Obviously some of these choices may seem to be subconscious. Yet they are still choices that we make in some manner or way, all of the time that we are in and thereby experience and express being in, Life.
Now let us consider the reality that for every Choice there are four options. These options are real and constant. These options can be considered as being the response to a question in a way of whether to participate in something or not and therefore bring us full circle to that consciousness and word of Voluntary. These options are Yes, No, Maybe which is to choose to defer to choose until sometime later, and the fourth and perhaps most impacting option is to Never Choose at all. If one does take the last option, most oftentimes that choice will result in consequences and thereby experiences that will make one want to choose a different option the next choice being made. Remember, one is ever connected to other beings and things when incarnate and they have prayers of Desire being expressed all of the time. Their prayers of Desire become merged with our own when we enjoin them in some manner, even the fundamental act of sharing the same existence here on Mother Earth, for a while. Not all of these other beings and things are Physical either. While some are discarnate as mentioned, there are some that really do not even care to be that much at all. And then of course we have the “Thought Forms” as mentioned previously in this material that can be beneficial at times, and killers in others. So when one in a naively or “High Minded” sense says something like “the Universe will provide” etc. we now know Why that is not always a good Choice to Allow happen. And gee, this idea of “Allow” sounds pretty much Voluntary to me too, ha, ha, ha.
At this point I am given to once again start another circular journey around this path of discovering how to “Deal With” the circumstances that we do not like in our experience and expressions of being in Life. Since tomorrow is Veterans Day, it seems like we should now do what we can as far as understanding how to “Deal” with that kind of Guilt and Remorse. And while we still are in the process of learning more about what Great Pop said in his first response of “Quit It” this is an “It” that no one in their right mind would want to have in their Life at all. Yet some of us do make that choice anyway and this path is Real and full of terror, horror, blood, guts, pain, suffering, hostility, Fear, Shame, and Remorse. It is a path that takes us to the scariest and most horror filled places imaginable and they are not only outside, but also inside of ourselves. Remember here and now, there is no “Good” war, period. I do mean that with all of my heart and soul.
Yet, to my shame and guilt, I
belong to a Life form option as a two legged that
Chooses to make personal choices of expressions that are utterly despicable and
cruel. Torture, rape, disembowelment, and
countless other means of inflicting pain, suffering, and cruelty upon other
Life forms including two leggeds like themselves, has continued from generation
to generation since long before the one called Jesus walked upon Mother
Earth. This is a method and means by
which some individual beings “Get what they want” which is to be the king or
queen bee and yes it is a behavioral pattern that has been productive and
successful in this prevalent culture. It
is also a part of the reason that there is an imaginary line in the sand that I
cannot cross over yet so as to be with or even visit anyone in
Life is most certainly not a “Game”, just ask anyone that has ever been shot, shot at, wounded, tortured, raped, and on, and on, and on. And for those of you that think video or computer games are harmless, they actually make the viewer believe there are no consequences past winning or loosing. In this I mean there is no sense of touch, feel, and smell that goes with the adrenalin rush of combat or danger that is the Reality of such. So if one wants to “Play” such games perhaps they should at least experience some of the smell of the reality of war. One way might be to make the environment where the video or computer game is being played, full of road kill that has been in the sun for at least one day. Before playing in this environment, one must first cut off some of ones hair and fingernails and place that in a bowl or ashtray with some matches and skin from one of the “Dead” things. One should next take a paper bag that is large enough to go over one’s head and shoulders and put some wasps inside the bag and then set fire to the stuff in the bowl. Once that gets going, place the bag over it so as to fill it up with the smoke from the bowl. Then for one to get the fullest measure of combat and warfare, one should take the bag and put it over ones head whereby one can only breathe the stench with the threat of being stung, while someone sets the top of the bag on fire. Of course the challenge is to see if you can remove the bag before getting burned or stung. That seems like a more proper presentation of Warfare and combat that one can realize than just some visual and non-consequential game that is being sold and promoted. If you want to “Play” this experience even once, perhaps you should consider getting some kind of psychiatric help immediately. And by no means is one to interpret that I am recommending that any being or thing should ever do such at all, much less just to have such an experience or “Win”.
The other day they had this program on television where some people were talking about their experiences of being in combat and war. They said that it was for “Mature” audiences. Maybe it should be required for anyone to ever play such games. One fellow talked about the adrenaline rush that he felt going into combat and how it became a drug he soon became addicted to. Another talked about seeing the face of a person that he killed, over and over again each time he closed his eyes. Of course that made getting a good night’s sleep not really possible, and since then he still has not. Others talked about the sickeningly “Sweet” smell of death and the blood and flesh of the battlefield while others spoke of the taste that they could never get out of their mind and mouth. Another person found that he felt most alive in such trials and tests, and then could not be in “Society” again because of the difference it made in him. Now that is just accountings from the “Combatants”, what about the others? Countless numbers of infants and children become horrified and emotionally and physically disabled and scared for life, and in that sense they are Raped. All beings and things are changed from such a Real experience, it is no Game and no one “Wins”. So what can we do, one might wonder? It seems like this is what Great Pop meant when He said: “Quit It” to me.
The question to me is How? I say this because of the prevalent culture, the Future of all beings and things is now even more in jeopardy. Sure the “Cold War” is over, meaning the threat of complete nuclear annihilation because of the actions or differences between two “Super Powers”. And we do have to remember that the materials that they made to do such still exist, for anyone that has such a desire and Motive to use. And how “Smart” can a bomb really be, and why do some people want to kill me?
These “Terrorist” people that say they
are now waging a “Holy War” and killing indiscriminately showed up not long
after that “Cold War” seemed to miraculously simply fade away. Of course there was the other “Little Wars”
happening all along anyway. The Gulf War
of Desert Storm, The
Well to simply “Quit it” does seem like an idea, but “How” can we or should we? Besides what is Life really? Also, “How” are we supposed to “Deal” with the muck of our own making in our Lives? Also, what should we teach our children, that they should teach their children and so forth so that the seventh generation yet born of every being and thing does not have such danger, horror, meanness, jeopardy, and so forth in their lives? Yep, as one can see I have again found myself with many more questions than answers or so it seems. Last night they had this program on television about war in which a fellow described an account whereby he killed someone. The someone that he killed was just a person like himself that was what they called “The Enemy”. He said he was just a kid himself at that time and that he did not want to kill anyone, yet he did. He cried from his soul as he recounted that experience and expression that occurred some fifty years before. You see time does not change the feelings of shame and guilt. Nope the feelings are permanent as is one’s memory. Unlike memory which we do amend at times, feelings stay pretty much pristine. In this I mean that we can choose to remember events in segments and through rationalization and justification we can and at times do, twist them so as to be more palatable to the point of their even becoming downright falsehoods. Such is not the same with feelings, in these we only become less hurt by them with time. Warfare is not about feelings, it is about death and destruction to the opposition before they do it to you, how insane. Yet we choose to incarnate into cultures, and families whereby this is likely to be an experience and expression.
How does one “Deal With” the remorse? How do we stop seeing the faces and expressions of the “Enemy” that we have just killed, and the smell and the sound? “Quit it”, Quit what? Actually we can quit thinking about those experiences and expressions, and in time we can choose to consider other thoughts of more pleasant things. Remember our Mind does not Care. But how do we get over Caring about something and the Feelings that are spawned from such Care? Ah, I see some perfection in this way of examining such, do not also you? Yep, we only loose our “Inner Child” and its innocence if we do not continue to Care, and that is the way to renew all of ones integrity and sanity from having any such experience or personal expression. I am not talking about murder here, but I am talking about taking the life of another being when necessary because they would do that to you if you did not do so first. That is not justification. There is no justification. Nope, there is only ones being caught up in the spider web of someone else’s design. This is real and true for any condition whereby one could be considered a “Victim” you see. It is real and true for anyone that has been assaulted, raped, tortured, in combat, on and on, and on. It is my fault in that for whatever reason, I was there. It is not Proper for any being to cause such pain and suffering, and we each have a responsibly to keep such from continuing to ourselves and all other beings and things.
We “Heal” any wound with time and by making new within ourselves. That is what a scar is all about, healing, new, and time. Our Soul can be considered to be a perpetual child, and that child can and does do stupid things and gets hurt. We have a responsibility to that child of oneself and well as that within each and every being and thing. If some person threatens to kill, enslave, murder, or rape any child, we must individually and collectively respond so as to preclude such from happening. I have no issue or problem with someone blowing themselves up, as long as they do not harm any other being or thing when they do so. However, if I choose to do something at all in regard to such potential, I really will not be either a hero or a victim in response to such a choice, you see.
Last evening I was reflecting upon how I seem to have process my past before writing these words as I do not want to “Prejudice” what is being presented because of my experiences and expressions. Nope, I most desire to present here only what Great Pop wants me to say, not some idea or attitude of mine so let’s do that now.
Great Pop what should we do to “Heal” ourselves from experiences and expressions of the past that have resulted in Feelings of Shame or Survivors Guilt? Great Pop’s response is: “Deny not oneself from such, as one chose to have in some measure just such an experience. One is always Loved and Perfect in My eye, even when one does something that harms another being or thing. I made the arena of Mother Earth to be a continuum of potential experiences and choices, and most of all, a learning place with the theme of Brotherhood. As each and all beings and things now on Mother Earth are co-existent with respect to their Life expressions, be not mean or hurtful to oneself or another if at all possible. I desire for all to be safe and fulfilled, yet all can be but only when such is a collective choice and will expression. I am not of disappointment, and all can be of Hope for betterment. Remember, in this design of Mine, all of ones past experiences are permanently recorded so that upon return to My Essential Will, all inside can learn from each other because of them and this design. You asked me why I created Pain, my response was so that you would Quit doing that, do you see now Little One”?
From what I just got from Great Pop is a solution that seems both simple and complex at the same time. In this I mean to say that I realize that we individually and collectively are in truth responsible for what happens from our choices. We also are a part of multiple collective consciousnesses that also make choices. A collective consciousness can be the people on the plane, bus, or train that we are riding when something happens to it. In reality we are all a part of the collective consciousness of each new day of Life here on Mother Earth which includes the Moon, Sun, Mother Earth, the Wind, Stars, asteroids, beings, things, and on, and on, and on. If an asteroid hits Mother Earth like some say may occur and end all Life here, whose fault is that? Actually this can happen and might be why there are so many people here at this time, maybe. No matter what happens, I chose to incarnate when I did so as to be here in this period of events and potential. Some of the events and potential I can have some influence on or about, and others I do not have so much of a say so, and I chose to come here knowing that too. In reality I am individually and totally responsible for my choices. Yet, I also have a certain influence and responsibility, miniscule or not, to the collective consciousnesses that I chose to enjoin in some manner or way while I am here. In this I mean to say that I am in a small way responsible for the continuing pollution of the water, earth, and air. It is not because I am doing it myself. Nope, it is because I am part of the consciousness that is enabling for such to occur or to continue. If I stand up and say no more, I am still responsible for it to keep continuing as long as it does. Because of the prevalent culture of which I chose to incarnate into which is a collective consciousness as well, I accept that I have little say so as to the continuance of all kinds of things such as murder, rape, war, pollution, and on, and on, and on. So is it my fault that these things continue? In some measure, it is. Is it Great Pop’s fault, after all He made everything? It is only in the reality that He gave us Free Will to make such choices and thereby, such potential behavioral expressions. And what He just told us is that no matter what we do or not, He Loves us and that All will learn something from our experiences and expressions.
How does the rape or torture victim “Heal”? Give away one’s past and seek each new day to be born new and be new and pure of Heart and Mind in it. In time one can free oneself from the horror and pain of that experience and let go of ones Fear, Anger, Guilt, and Shame that way. How does the person that killed an innocent person be it in accident or warfare “Heal”? Do what one can to “Give Away” in recompense and the best Give Away is ones desire to repeat such an experience. What can one do to stop the thoughts of combat that continue after such? Renew one’s inner child in constructive expressions, art, and play. In doing something physically this way, one makes balance within, because the hands that killed now do a more lasting positive thing. How does one “Heal” an experience of abuse? Renew all aspects of one’s Life by owning one’s reality of having unlimited Potential with respect to one’s Future and dwell on none of it, and instead just choose to become more of that. How does one “Heal” the loss of a good friend, child, parent, or family member? Thank them for the shared time and go forward into the Future in a manner that honors and respects their gift of sharing in one’s Life to that point. And by the way, many of these conditions are associated with anger and rage, be it subtly or overtly. As anger is Fear, own it and know that it has a time limit. Anger can be a positive or negative thing depending upon how one responds, and to best “Quit it” is to do something physical to express oneself in a way that does no harm to oneself or any other being or thing. Some options are to Yell, throw rocks at the water, and my favorite is to strip vines from trees as well as any loose Bark, ha, ha, ha.
So you can see, no matter the source of
any type of Shame and Guilt, it is really just Fear that is associated to Pain
over an event or expression of one’s past that one cannot change and can do
only one thing about. Yep, that one
thing that one can do about living in the past in one’s thoughts and Mind is
simply to “Quit it”.
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